A shitty little prayer for Tuesday
Dear God,
Not sure if you’ve noticed, but the world feels pretty unhinged at the moment.
Reading the news makes me feel powerless, angry, and terrified. And because I don’t want to feel like that all the time, I sort of zone out on TV and Instagram, which makes me feel better...for a minute. Then I just feel worse, because life is rare and precious and we only get so many hours, and I just spent 1.2 of them scrolling videos an algorithm picked out just for me, because apparently I’m both more predictable and more manipulable than I like to think.
So, I won’t ask for you to fix the world to suit me because better people than I have tried those prayers and they don’t work, so could you maybe just help me be in this world without letting it hollow me out quite so much?
And if you’re not going to just fix this shit (which, again, I assume you’re not), then could you help me to see where you ARE knitting together what I’ve unraveled, where you ARE ushering in reconciliation between people who have disappointed each other again, where you ARE quietly loving us into tomorrow?
And please let me know what I can do down here, even if it’s small. (And make it obvious please, because I tend to miss the subtle stuff).
Like what kindness I can offer that might not fix the world, but at least help another person survive this day on your Earth? And forgive me for not noticing how often other people are doing the same for me, because I’m too busy freaking out.
And if it’s not too much to ask, a few more good TV shows soon?
Amen.
You are making a difference Nadia, by being vulnerable and empathetic to others, while being challenged physically and grieving. God is more present now than ever, even though it feels like the world is going to spontaneously combust any minute. Your conversation on Kate’s podcast recently was so wonderful, you sharing about how life has changed for you, scaled back and quiet. This is where God does His BEST work. When we’re still and present in the small things. Your life has impacted many others, me included, and I pray for rest and peace for you Nadia.💛
St. Teresa said “We can’t all do great things, but we can all do small things with love.” Each small act of love makes this world a better place - so let’s commence to making things better!