I am so very embarrassed to say that it is FINALLY my turn and when I went to set up my appointment the vaccine available for me was that Johnson and Johnson vaccine. Well I don't want that one, I want the Pfizer one. Seriously, WTF is wrong with me???? (P.S. still have not made an appointment). God please help me stop acting like a selfish, spoiled brat/jerk!
Thank you for your morning honesty about where you are. After having been teaching in-person since August you would think that seeing nearly 2000 kids every day that I would be ready to deal with crowds. But, I still have near panic attacks anytime I walk into a store filled with people. I grocery shop once a week early on Sunday morning so that I can see the least number of people. Anything else I shop for online. I cannot take crowds anymore. I am an introvert by nature but I do love 'people' watching and fellowship yet I can seem to tolerate it any longer. I don't know what to do with that. Please don't think that I'm whining about teaching in-person; I was at first. When we first started in August I was terrified every day. It was strange that once I had COVID, it quit being scary. Now, I see my high school kids differently. I see how completely different they are from any other year. The number in foster care is up 20+%. The number in and out of mental health facilities is 3x what it used to be. Hugs (which are extremely ill-advised) are something I give out all day every day because human contact can't be replaced. We are all desperate for human connection that doesn't require a computer interface. I hope and pray that we can all relearn how to do this. I'm struggling, but I'm hurting more because of the condition of those on the cusp of adulthood. How are these precious people ever going to know how to socialize as adults if all the adults have lost the ability? Sorry, I apologize for ranting, but these are the thoughts that keep me awake at 3 a.m.
I forgot to mention how everyone wearing masks all the time appears to make everyone have a strange feeling of separation as well even with the hugs and talking face to face. I strongly feel that all of us need some kind of 'therapy' after this is over. We need to reconnect with our humanity as a society.
I really appreciate everything you said in this post, and can definitely relate. That said, does Schitts Creek really get better? And what makes it better? My fiance and I cannot seem to get invested in the plight of a rich family of jerks. Though, if you think it gets better, I might be persuaded to keep watching.
oh my gosh, it gets so much better. you've gotta hang in through the first season because the characters are so unlikeable. but, like all of us, they have wonderful redemption arcs :)
Schitt's Creek from moment one for every delicious moment. This right here is part of my somehow as is my al-anon community. I have a dose of the vaccine because my niece asked if we wanted to be on a waitlist. We get just a 2 hour "heads up" to get one before it expires. The leftovers - yes, please!! My emotions have been everywhere this year. I'm only really afraid at the times when I can't muster any hope.
Thank you as well your communiques keep me tuned in when my Catholic clerics seem to be doing their to turn this in to something that it isn't.. Fr. Dan Berrigan pray for us
On the subject of missing music -- here is an astonishingly visual as well as musical rendition of the Hallelujah Chorus. An example of necessity breeding invention and also an example of what you can accomplish with a great setting, fine musicianship, creativity, and a really good tech guy! Besides finding it beautiful, the expressivity and individuality of the manifold singers teared me up. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NXFhkmyVRgM
Every single prayer of yours during this pandemic has made me cry. Not sure what to make of that, but I'm grateful for the way you keep it real. I keep hearing about Schitts Creek but haven't watched it.
Thank you, Nadia, for somehow knowing exactly how I feel week and for having the beautiful and grace-filled words to express my feelings. You are a blessing!
I'm spinning today. After my first shot 10 days ago, I felt like there was hope and I was happy and calm for a few days, and today the tension is all back. It's a process. "No feeling is final" like Rilke says. But I'm so tired of the anxious one. And as always, it's comforting to know I'm not the only one.
I am so very embarrassed to say that it is FINALLY my turn and when I went to set up my appointment the vaccine available for me was that Johnson and Johnson vaccine. Well I don't want that one, I want the Pfizer one. Seriously, WTF is wrong with me???? (P.S. still have not made an appointment). God please help me stop acting like a selfish, spoiled brat/jerk!
Ha! Don't we all do it? (I want the J&J...which is unavailable in Tampa! Wanna trade? :-)
Thank you for your morning honesty about where you are. After having been teaching in-person since August you would think that seeing nearly 2000 kids every day that I would be ready to deal with crowds. But, I still have near panic attacks anytime I walk into a store filled with people. I grocery shop once a week early on Sunday morning so that I can see the least number of people. Anything else I shop for online. I cannot take crowds anymore. I am an introvert by nature but I do love 'people' watching and fellowship yet I can seem to tolerate it any longer. I don't know what to do with that. Please don't think that I'm whining about teaching in-person; I was at first. When we first started in August I was terrified every day. It was strange that once I had COVID, it quit being scary. Now, I see my high school kids differently. I see how completely different they are from any other year. The number in foster care is up 20+%. The number in and out of mental health facilities is 3x what it used to be. Hugs (which are extremely ill-advised) are something I give out all day every day because human contact can't be replaced. We are all desperate for human connection that doesn't require a computer interface. I hope and pray that we can all relearn how to do this. I'm struggling, but I'm hurting more because of the condition of those on the cusp of adulthood. How are these precious people ever going to know how to socialize as adults if all the adults have lost the ability? Sorry, I apologize for ranting, but these are the thoughts that keep me awake at 3 a.m.
I forgot to mention how everyone wearing masks all the time appears to make everyone have a strange feeling of separation as well even with the hugs and talking face to face. I strongly feel that all of us need some kind of 'therapy' after this is over. We need to reconnect with our humanity as a society.
Received my first shot last Monday and I cried.
I really appreciate everything you said in this post, and can definitely relate. That said, does Schitts Creek really get better? And what makes it better? My fiance and I cannot seem to get invested in the plight of a rich family of jerks. Though, if you think it gets better, I might be persuaded to keep watching.
oh my gosh, it gets so much better. you've gotta hang in through the first season because the characters are so unlikeable. but, like all of us, they have wonderful redemption arcs :)
Resilience is itself a great blessing.
Schitt's Creek from moment one for every delicious moment. This right here is part of my somehow as is my al-anon community. I have a dose of the vaccine because my niece asked if we wanted to be on a waitlist. We get just a 2 hour "heads up" to get one before it expires. The leftovers - yes, please!! My emotions have been everywhere this year. I'm only really afraid at the times when I can't muster any hope.
Thank you as well your communiques keep me tuned in when my Catholic clerics seem to be doing their to turn this in to something that it isn't.. Fr. Dan Berrigan pray for us
On the subject of missing music -- here is an astonishingly visual as well as musical rendition of the Hallelujah Chorus. An example of necessity breeding invention and also an example of what you can accomplish with a great setting, fine musicianship, creativity, and a really good tech guy! Besides finding it beautiful, the expressivity and individuality of the manifold singers teared me up. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NXFhkmyVRgM
Nadia, this was so helpful to me and a validation of how I’ve been thinking. Thank-you for putting it into words
Every single prayer of yours during this pandemic has made me cry. Not sure what to make of that, but I'm grateful for the way you keep it real. I keep hearing about Schitts Creek but haven't watched it.
I so appreciate your prayers. They resonate deeply within me.
Thank you, Nadia, for somehow knowing exactly how I feel week and for having the beautiful and grace-filled words to express my feelings. You are a blessing!
I'm spinning today. After my first shot 10 days ago, I felt like there was hope and I was happy and calm for a few days, and today the tension is all back. It's a process. "No feeling is final" like Rilke says. But I'm so tired of the anxious one. And as always, it's comforting to know I'm not the only one.
Thank you!
Love this. ODAT comes to mind, as it does with lots of things. Love your thoughts, love how you make my heart smile. Be well, be safe.
Thank you. I needed this this morning.