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Thank you for this. I'll read it again later. This morning I am overwhelmed with a deep and raging anger. The feeling. Nothing obvious has tipped me here it's a domain I don't usually visit. I am scared of anger and I don't get why I'm psychically raging right now. Im on my three day shift caring for my mother but I was feeling ok about that. I had a lovely text from my pastor, I read my devotional but here out of the blue is a screaming rage. I don't want to put it on anyone, just name it. Let it pass. If anyone could be so kind as to pray for this rage to pass that would be lovely. Thanks. 💜🙏💜

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I think your experience is a common one right now. Read a book called Love & Rage by Lama Rod Owens recently - he suggests that the rage, underneath the surface, is heartbrokenness. And the anger is usually trying to tell you something about your hurt. Maybe try not to be afraid of it, but rather see it as a guidepost? Sending lots of love to you, friend.

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Thank you Jen. That's a really astute point. I'll check out that book. Makes so much sense given the times and my current situation. Love to you, friend

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Praying that His Spirit will walk with you during this difficult time.

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Thank you. Much appreciated.

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Thank you for writing so honestly and transparently and passionately and KINDLY about difficult and challenging subjects. So beautifully steeped in the best of the tradition, and yet as fresh and surprising as tomorrow's sunrise. Thank you, thank you.

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Thank you thank you so much. So glad to have an update on pastor Ingrid. Her video —. Well you gave it words for me. It was the thing that finally allowed my tears to flow.

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I became aware of women who had gone before me and blazed a path to this days modern medicine when I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I was able to hope because of all the medical testing and treatments that women said yes to prior to my becoming I'll. I felt their presence and a resounding joyful YES as I agreed to participate in two test studies that were uncomfortable for me. Thank you for reminding me that hope can be passed down through generations and I can be part of that.

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Thank you for this. Moved by the same video of Pastor Rasmussen following the protests and riots in the neighborhood of Holy Trinity Lutheran Church in Minneapolis (thanks to Rev. Emmy Kegler tweeting ways to help in MPLS during the protest which let to the video), our pastor and our little knitting group had a diaper/soap/masks drive and drove north up I-35 from Iowa to Minneapolis with van full of supplies. We drove by the destroyed buildings. What gave me hope were the volunteers at Holy Trinity who unloaded our van. I found hope in the artists painting the plywood covering the broken windows. I found hope in the kind clerk at Target who let me go through the checkout multiple times to take advantage of the buy $75 of diapers and get a $15 gift card special. I find hope in my friends who are sewing and donating cotton face masks. Our donation was just a drop in the bucket of what they still need. https://htlcmpls.org/

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Hope: Confident assurance

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Amen. I conceived a hoped-for second child at what we thought then was the height of the pandemic. This week I found out I am carrying a girl. You wrote this for me, thank you.

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Powerful. Thank you.

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Finally got a quiet moment to sit and listen to this. Thank you, Nadia, for never blowing sunshine up our asses, but speaking truth - in love.

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You get to me every time. The story of friends and parishoners surrounding the hospital and singing Mike into heaven was so beautiful.

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Thank you....she says through her tears.

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Thank you. I needed to read this today.

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Nadia, that was so absolutely beautiful. There is a great compassion in refusing to provide illusory hope, and a great comfort in realizing precedented hope.

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